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08 September 2007
Well, me too I think. First thing this morning I was thankfully a pound lighter. I did 40 minutes of cardio yesterday afternoon helped. Also, I know I was hydrated because I've been drinking like a camel (do they drink a lot or just store a lot?)to prepare for another Saturday morning in hot yoga. All the hydration worked as the class was a little better this time. My goal is to be at 224 for my weigh-in which would be a 3 lb loss from last week. I think I can make it if I keep active enough. Have a good weekend everyone!
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07 September 2007
My weight hasn't budged since last Friday! I've changed nothing really, and all the sudden every morning it's the same maddening number! And, last night I literally awakened by
hunger
pangs
. It so bad I had to go downstairs and get a cup of tea. I've been hungrier than ever this past week, and nothing! I'm flummoxed. Plateaus are the toughests parts because I get addicted to the momentum as my main motivation. And now my little sail is hanging straight down without a gust in sight :( Anyway, how do other people deal with a plateau? And I really didn't think I'd experience one at 227 pounds. Good lord -- thought it would be smooth sailing (to extend my metaphor) for at least a few more weeks. I need a wind-up!
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04 September 2007
Heading in for a weigh-in today and I'm painfully aware this has
not
been another 4 lb week. I think maybe I've lost 2 lbs? We'll see I guess.
So one thing that is different this time is that I'm keeping connected with my expectations around the "end goal." To this end, I take a quiet moment each day (usually before I fall asleep) to visualize what it will be like to be at my thinness goal. Having lost a lot of weight before, I recall feeling a continued sense of longing even after the weight was gone. Longing, or maybe, restlessness? For as pleased as I was about the loss there was still something disconnected in the way that I felt in my own skin. Put another way, I think I still felt large and awkward despite my small size.
I'm aware that more general types of dissatisfaction will survive the weight loss. I realize that being small again doesn't change the fact that I'm not sure what to do with the rest of my life, or other gnawing concerns (like, how can we make enough money for my husband to retire soon too?). But for now this is at least a healthy change to obsess over and award me with a sense of weekly accomplishment. Mostly, I think about this question:
Once I've lost the weight, what then?
All the reasons that drive me to overeat will still be there, so what will counteract them? So far, the next paragraph captures most of my list.
Foremost, it will be much easier to lift and carry my son. Right now I'm ashamed to hand him off after 10 minutes because my back is killing me already. Also, I'll be able to spend an hour in Home Depot without wanting to collapse in a chair with aching, unworking legs. I'll enjoy running again, as opposed to struggling through it, with misery. And yes, I'll allow people to photograph me without feeling mortified or downright resentful. And maybe I won't so desperately avoid going to the doctor. This, of course, due to the weighing portion of each visit. I sweat just thinking about those first horrifying moments; clenching with dread that today it will be a super skinny--or worse yet, male--nurse. Also, I'll be able to wear jeans without constantly feeling pinched or doing the ever-so-ladylike adjusting-pulling-tugging dance to make them fit again each time I stand up. I'll enjoy seeing friends and family, released from the distraction of worrying what they think of my neglected appearance. But the thing I like to visualize most lately is how, around March or so, I will walk into Cicada Bridal in downtown Seattle and try on any dress I please for my wedding next Fall. We eloped for our civil ceremoy, so this event is the big wedding which includes our family and friends. Also, my husband promises a trip to Spain for shopping the
instant
I reach my goal. I love travel and beautiful clothes so this is a great motivator. I hope it's not like when I went to Argentina -- I couldn't fit into any clothes there--I'm pretty sure women are required by law to be size two. And in any of the shops, if you casually grab a hanging garment for a closer look, the ever-so-vigilant saleswoman will run over to make sure you know that's not your size. You see, they have to sell everything they display, so they're very afraid people ruin stuff trying it on. So every shop you wander into they will watch like hawks under the guise of "assistance" and only let you try things on if they approve you'll be able to fit it. Avoiding these humiliating encounters left me trying on a lot of...shoes.
Anyway, I have to say, most of all I'm motivated for my husband. He's been so wonderful! I've gained so much weight in the past year and he has never uttered a word or made me feel anything but beautiful. He even eats Jenny Craig with me sometimes. He's making it possible for me to stay home with my son every day and really think about what I'd like to do next, professionally speaking. He deserves a healthy, vibrant partner who also looks great at the company Christmas party:)
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04 September 2007
Lost only 2 lbs this week which doesn't seem great but I'd anticipated a bit of a slow down while my body finds it's groove. I've followed the diet almost 100% for 6 weeks and have lost 23 pounds. How can I not be pleased with that kind of progress? But I have a lot more work to do before I start congratulating myself!
Weight:
Lost so far:
Still to go:
Diet followed:
103.0 kg
10.4 kg
32.7 kg
100%
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Losing 0.9 kg a Week
30 August 2007
I'm massive and hungry. Today sucked and I'm finding myself overly resentful of naturally thin people, or anyone dieting who is only trying to lose 5-10 lbs. I know everyone is different and has different challenges, but I can't help it. I'm sure it will wear off, but today, not so much. So, like, you're trying to lose 5 lbs and I'm trying to get to a point where I can see everything I'd like to shave. Sigh. See my point? How do we bond? And why do people gripe about a lifelong struggle with weight loss? Personally I have no beef with loss. Weight gain, however, is a bitch. And I don't want to be the biggest loser...I want to be the smallest one. But not a loser. You know what I mean. I'm sick of carrots. And I'm REAAAALLLLY sick of yogurt. And if you have 5 or 10 lbs to lose let me apologize now for belittling your plight. I wish you well.
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