I have been overweight my whole life. I am a depressive eater...I underwent emotional and psychological hardships during college, I eat and eat and eat then I purge. I always feel awful about how I look like. until last 2 or 3 years ago that I have been able to cope up.
Praise God that I was able to bit by bit regain my confidence. I began to love myself. Although insecurities are still there, but I am hopeful that i would be able to lose weight and be healthy.
Diet for me is not starving myself or depriving myself of the goodness of life, especially food! It's a lifestyle that I am trying to teach myself. I have tried diet pills, Herbalife...but I realized I dont wanna stick with these pills or these shakes for the rest of my life! i want to live a normal life. Eat normal, but healthier.
Right now I have already lost craving on fast foods and unhealthy stuff. That's a great job for me! Sometimes I even find my head calculating the calories of every food I see, it's not paranoia...but actually my mind on duty using the discipline it has learned.
I have not reached my goal yet...I am still too far from it...but i am getting there. I am excited to see the super model inside this big fat body.
Go go go!!!
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