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I did not "Blog" the last few days, because I was not "Good". Tuesday and Wednesday I spent the days binging. Healthy, as usual, but wrong, none the less. Sad faces on the calender. Didn't feel much like writing when I was so Off the mark. The scale doesn't show gains, because I make up for it with exercise and as I say, my binges are fruits and vegis along with local sugarfree/fat free deserts and my favorite plain popcorn so I can endlessly munch. Not sure where/when this cycle will end. I really need to get some more help. The nutritionist, although kind, was not really helfpful. Most of what she said was common knowledge and what I alrady know and should be doing. I just can't wrap my mind around it all and get ahold of it. For that I'm certain I need psychological help for. My marriage and home life with kids is stressful on a daily basis to say the least. Most everyone's is, but I think mine at a slightly higher level and obviously my coping mechanisms are not good ones. It's Friday and I'm off for my early morning workout. I will take my dad out to lunch for his Birthday and have a baby shower to go to. Neither of which I am worried about my eating. It's when I am home here at the house, when it is at it's worst and I feel like I will burst if I am not eating something at all times, hungry or not. Hopefully the weekend will hold good things in store and I can stay busy enough not to have to deal with this 24/7.
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