juanab's Journal, 23 Mar 11

I can't believe I have reached a new max. How have I let myself get this bad? No wonder I hurt and have a hard time breathing. I have always known I was fat but this is bad. When i got over 350 I thought wow 400 is not that far away but that wasn't enough for me to get my shit together. Now I am at 370. No wonder my clothes don't fit anymore.
Today I did the cardioglide twice at a pretty good pace. I did 100 reps in 4 minutes twice. I have to admit I am pretty impressed with that number. I also walked to and from the cafe.
I need to keep telling myself I can do this. I don't want to die. I want to be around to see my kids do everything they want to do. I need to find inspration from everything in my life and all of the people in it. I have said today that Troy's life and death from cancer is an inspiration. He fought so hard for something that was not his fault and i am not trying and it is my fault. RIP Troy and keep helping me. I focus alot on how old my mom and grandma were when they died and how I think that will be me also. I need to let go of that and think about the family members that are living long lives. I CAN do this.

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4139 kcal

Exercise: Exercise machine (moderate) - 8 minutes, Walking (slow) - 3/kph - 10 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 42 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...