It’s been about two months that I’m 54 kg but just didn’t update my FS. I know it’s not really okay to say it out loud and it may seem weird but I guess I haven’t recovered... Back in summer that I was being so anorexic and after that I had to recover cause my parents were really angry and upset . And now that I can’t cope with anxiety and how awful is my body image ! I’m having a healthy weight and I workout regularly and eat fine but a healthy body is not always perfect... I was much thinner and skinnier when I weighed 48 kgs (but didn’t exercise regularly)than now that I’m 54 but with 46% muscle and about 20% body fat. I just want my thin body back :(( I have been restrictive dieting again and I hope the number on scale goes down again... I just love to see how my fatsecret buddies lose weight and are happy with their lives somehow and they enjoy their food. But sadly I don’t enjoy it at all and I sometimes purge... I know opening up is so awkward and weird but I just needed to say that all. Thanks for reading this girl’s concerns and worries :)))) I hope you’re doing well❤️ P.S I will post a picture of my body image today and I know that makes me anxious but Denn is gonna beat this💪🏼☹️
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54 kg
Lost so far: 11 kg.
Still to go: 0 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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View Diet Calendar, 03 February 2018:
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1003 kcal
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Fat: 34.75g | Prot: 44.51g | Carbs: 131.51g.
Breakfast: White Bread . Lunch: Baked or Fried Coated Chicken Breast Skinless (Coating Eaten), Boiled Potato (without Peel, Fat Not Added in Cooking), Egg White , Potato French Fries, Cucumber (with Peel). Dinner: Lettuce Salad with Assorted Vegetables, Apples , Kidney Beans (Liquid, Stewed). Snacks/Other: Butter , White Bread , White Flour, Beef Stew, Kiwi Fruit. more...
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Gaining 0.1 kg a Week
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My heart aches for you...I wish I had the right words to express my desire to help you heal. I am sure there are FatSecret friends who have been where you are and understand your pain. I am sure someone will reach out to you who is better equipped to mentor and help. As for me, I will pray for God to bring someone into your life to help and the He hold you ever so close.
04 Feb 18 by member: 2227Gwen
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