Multiplicity1's Journal, 25 Mar 10

I decided yesterday that I am too hard on myself. Mostly I am just trying to correct my mistakes so I don't keep making the same ones but I am lots easier on other people and more supportive. Today I read a lot more of the Beck Diet Solution. It gets better and better. It's not always 100% easy to do all the daily tasks but what new learning is ever 100% easy. I know it will be incredibly beneficial to me so I am giving it 100%. I was supposed to work on eating slowly and mindfully today - well I worked on all the other tasks a lot but I completely forgot to do today's so tomorrow I get to try again. I don't eat overly fast but I do get distracted a lot when I eat so I eat too much or don't really pay as much attention to what I eat as I should (unless it is something I shouldn't eat). Anyway tomorrow and maybe several days after that it is slow and mindful eating...I was thinking tonight about a huge weight loss challenge I have coming up. I am going to a three day retreat in two weeks and all everyone does there is eat junk nonstop. I've already thought about bringing up a cooler so I can bring some foods that are on Atkins. Some of the meals we eat out I can manage to arrange around the Atkins food plan (for example we eat at a buffet style cafeteria for breakfast but I can get bacon and eggs). I am mainly worried I will be tempted by cravings or by people pushing food at me. I don't want to gain weight or to have to start all over w/the headaches and the Atkins flu. Anyway any suggestions would be appreciated. I did not get my walk in today though I tried to talk my daughter into going with me. I am definitely going to stop weighing every day. I am making a commitment as of tonight that I will not weigh again until my weekly weigh-in day because it is making me crazy!

View Diet Calendar, 25 March 2010:
1606 kcal Fat: 133.68g | Prot: 80.89g | Carbs: 16.60g.   Breakfast: Egg, Bacon. Lunch: Newman's Own Olive Oil, Lettuce, Kraft Mayonnaise, Eggs. Dinner: butter, Lettuce, Green Beans, Turkey. Snacks/Other: Dill pickle, Pork rinds, Dasani strawberry flavored water. more...
2590 kcal Exercise: Resting - 12 hours, Sleeping - 12 hours. more...

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You shouldn't be so hard on yourself, none of us are perfect. If we were we would all be named Jesus. You have got to be positive. Being so hard on yourself isn't helping anything. I use to be an every day weigher, but it did drive we crazy!!! As for your retreat, you are going to have to just decided that you are going to stick to your diet,do it for YOU. I wish I had more detailed advise for you, but I think that knowing that you are worth the effort is the most important thing....Good luck, and YOU CAN DO IT :) 
25 Mar 10 by member: Tara73
Isn't it true that we're always way harder on ourselves than we would ever be on anyone else? I think most of us (Americans, in particular) eat without actually thinking about what we are eating. In fact, some of that might be self-preservation! Think about what's in a chicken nugget or how that chicken was raised : ) Sometimes mindlessness is a blessing! Okay, but seriously, today is only way day and we'll never get it all right, every day for the rest of our lives. So we mess up here and there (I just had a major food binge a couple of days ago), but it's how we carry on from that point that is the true measure of a person, no? So we acknowledge where we didn't do exactly perfectly, figure out how we can do better and congratulate ourselves on all the things we did well. I have a "girls' weekend" coming up soon, so I really understand your concerns. I AM taking a cooler with food. My girlfriends have put on a few extra pounds over the last year and though I don't care about that at all, I'm worried that eating may be the highlight of the trip. Well, not the highlight, but I'm sure it'll be a major focus. I'll just have to stay strong and maybe even encourage them to want to eat a little healthier. The other thing - I tried to get my daughter to work out with me and she won't. Did one time, and my husband worked out with me one time. So it sucks, I'd rather have the company and the encouragement to do better and put in more effort, etc., but it's not happening. I think my motto of the year is, It is what it is. : ) Best of luck, you'll do fine. Oh, and I drove myself crazy weighing myself every day, too. Not a great thing for a woman to do - too many fluctuations. 
26 Mar 10 by member: redwinelover
You are so right about us being harder on ourselves than anyone else will ever be.... I am my own worst critic, always have been. I expect myself to be and do 100% all the time. Sounds funny cause why am I fat then? I have to be like you and learn to slow down. I am always eating on the run. Hell I even eat my breakfast while in my car driving home from work cause I don't want to take the time to sit in the cafeteria and eat it. It comes with my job I guess but even on my days off when I am at home, I will eat standing up and while I am doing chores instead of sitting down and eating. I remember a dear friend I had years ago. She was single and lived alone. Every evening when she made her supper, she would set the table, add flowers and a candle. Use her good dishes and sit and have a leisurely dinner. I thought she was nuts! LOL Now I think she was smart....oh yeah and she was slim too. 
26 Mar 10 by member: carbcount
Multi, I am in agreement. Those around us love and accept us, regardless if we are fat or thin. They want us to be happy. However, we want perfection. We want to be thin and look good. We want to be healthy for our own reasons. When we don't have someone critiqing everything we do - we do it for ourselves. I find that pushing myself have its pros and cons. If I didn't push myself, I probably wouldn't still be here. Yet, when I push too hard, I feel frustrated when I do not see the results. You'll get there hon. Be patient and love yourself. We do. 
26 Mar 10 by member: kmartin
Thanks for all the comments. I am doing very well today even parked a long way from the store so I would walk extra (and I'm not even up to that daily task in the book yet). Eating slowly and mindfully was harder than I thought. I always thought I ate rather slowly but it is not true. I sure did like the extra long tastes of bacon but my husband made me fried eggs instead of the scrambled I asked for so I didn't enjoy them quite as much. Also eating w/out the TV on was weird, too. But if it helps me get and stay slim I'm learning it! 
26 Mar 10 by member: Multiplicity1

     
 

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