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I didn't eat at all yesterday. The pain was too much. I cried for a good part of the day, and then I just went numb. We told our son who promptly broke down in MY arms (mind you). I couldn't bear it. The immensity of the pain consumed me. It clouded my vision and hearing. I told him I still loved him and wanted to make it work. PATHETIC.
We agreed on a different situation. I had to work last night. It helped me to get out of the house and clear my mind. I woke up this morning with a new mindset. I am moving asap. It will probably be in March or April some time. I simply cannot allow myself to stoop this low.
The fact that he could sleep with a random stranger 2 nights after we decided to end our marriage tells me a lot about him.. things I didn't want to know. I'm better than him. I deserve better.
Being alone would be better than being with trash like that.
I joined a gym today. Curves..
It's a starter gym for me as I've NEVER been inside of a gym, let alone participated in activities inside of one. I'm excited about it. I'm excited about this new chapter in my life.
I don't need him. I don't want him. I hate what it's going to do to our son, but how much humiliation can one person stand? I'm finished.
It hurts so hard, but I'm finished.
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i'm so sorry u are hurting... the only thing i can tell you is that you cannot allow anything to affect your decision to leave... your son will hurt but it will get better... focus on putting urself back together first so you can be a strong mom for him...when i left my husband i was so scared that i was ruining my kids lives and that they would hate me.. but bottom line is i'm a much better mother now that i'm happy..
09 Jan 12 by member: Naiomy
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I see a new sleeker Pretty in the not so distant future, doing things that are good for her. So so proud of you for joining the gym, I know what a huge step that is.....go you!!
09 Jan 12 by member: triaby
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I am so sorry...hugs! Congrats on the gym and deciding to take control of your life...the first step is always the hardest!
09 Jan 12 by member: ctlss
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I hate that he hurt you so badly..Now you can go on and make a new
start to a new you..Great job on joining the gym..exercise it soo good
for you and your emotions..Take care of you...:O)
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Thinking about you girl! Every woman deserves a man that gives them the world and treats them like the world revolves around them. My buddy hang in there, you will make it through this. I know that pain and it will get better. I am so proud of you for talking about it! It helps!
What?? Joining a gym! You are amazing! I have a gym membership and I never use it! I loved Curves when I used to go years ago! You have just inspired me I ams starting back to my SpaLady gym tomorrow! We can do it together! You will see exercise in my diary for Tuesday! Let's put all our angry into getting stubborn and putting ourselves first!
09 Jan 12 by member: CurlyLocks66
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