Cireena's Journal, 02 Dec 09

your not alone. about 2 years ago i lost about 25 lbs. then for some reason, i just gave up and put it all back on plus 10 lbs. now i have no motivation what so ever. the more i think about it the more i eat and the smaller my clothes are getting. when you find the secret to get back on track and start loosing again let me know. my hubby even took me on a mexican vacation and i just kept putting it on. 

don't know how i get back on track all the time :S, i suddenly find my self surrounded by thoughts of getting married, having children, and how unfair all of this will be to the guy who will chose me looking like this ! the longer i think like this, the more determination i get, but then after a while, my thoughts change and i think to myself, WHO CARES?! why do i care and right after that i start ruining my diet step by step until i'm no longer on track, i don't know how to explain this, i tried to figure it out so many times, but maybe being overweight is clouding my judgment and getting me depressed all the time that i can't go on anymore without giving up no matter how good the result was.  

Hi Cireena... you are not alone... i guess we all feel that way. We loose all our weight and then for some unbelievable reason we just start eating BADLY all over again. A piece of advice? Take baby steps... I read somewhere that you need to loose weight for special occasion but girl... 4 months is too much and as soon as you don't see immediate results you are going to freak out. BABY STEPS You asked who cares? You care! Just repeat it to yourself.. you do this for you, because you love yourself and want to take care of yourself.. you are beautiful and you deserve to wear beautiful clothes, have lots of energy and be HAPPY with how you look! And remember, if you go off track.. you can get back on track on the next meal, don't just think you ruined everything, ok? hope this helps Pam  

*HUGS* Now set your weight loss on autopilot and get on with your life! Just set up a schedule of eating and exercise and just do it. No whining. No excuses. No delays. No obsessing. And don't do it for some random dream of a man, the only person who cares if you are fat or not is YOU. The only one who can change if you are fat or not is YOU. If the guy choses you when your fat who cares if it's "fair" he picked you, you agreed to choose him to. That's it. There is no "fair" invlved.  

thank you so much pam and sunshinegirl you have no idea how much you helped with this, I really feel motivated reading your comments i'm really grateful, i guess apart from all the weight loss i never focused on the fact that i'm doing this for me, i realize now that the entire time i was thinking about doing it for someone else other than myself like it is supposed to be, and to be honest i want to be thin because i want to be energitic and outgoing more than i am now, I really want to enjoy my youth, all my friends say cireena you are beautiful but if you lose weight you'll look HOT! and in the middle of all that i forgot that all i want to be is healthy, the looks is just a bonus for me, thank you so much i appreciate your support :) 

Hi Cireena, I just had a look at your weight loss chart, well done! Think little goals, say 5K or 10lb amounts, I found that works for me. If you set your goals too high you might fall, but little mini goals might keep you more focused :) Linda 

thank you very much Linda,, i'm following your advice and i'm looking forward to losing a small amount of weight one at a time, and hopefully this will help me lose weight .. thank you very much :D  

Cireena - you'll be OK, take it one day at a time, and have small meals when you do eat and snacktime too. Do have those occasional splurges like on a holiday if you must. But don't turn them into an everyday thing or you'll get stuck. I've had no computer since April 6 - finally permanently back on as of Thursday, so I gained some back, but not too much. This site WILL support you. First, what is it going to take to get to lose some weight for you? Dreaded induction, which so many of the people on here want to avoid will do it if all else fails, and don't worry if you're not eating too much as long as it is over 1200 calories a day it can be just a small amount of food, but you know what? The scale won't lie. If you work hard enough and do get some exercise in there somehow too even if it is winter where you live, you will lose some weight, you'll have to. And put a sign on your fridge maybe - I'm thin now, or I'm at my goal weight, and guess what in time it WILL happen because you'll let it. So many people here on Atkins say calories don't matter, but FOR ME no matter what they DID. I can't eat a lot of calories even on induction I will stall. Everyone is different. When I worked as a nurse, every bedridden patient put on a low cal diet eventually lost weight even if someone snuck in a meal once in a great while, because they took out more than in. So if you do Atkins, which I find easy and not overload on the calories you've got double the attack against the weight most people with weight issues don't have. Good luck. I was 260 before, now 211, going back to the 190s, but I'm already thin again. You can do it! 

thank you glenn the things is that what i'm eating all day does'nt exceed 600 calories and i'm not sure if this is okay or not. from what i understood after reading Dr. Atkins book that the recommended intake for female is 1500 calories and i'm hardly eating that much, it is not like i don't want to eat but the appetite to do so is not there, however i'm still losing :D which is the amazing part now. couple of days ago i didn't lose a gram and i got so depressed but i guess my body was just stalling, now i'm losing and my first small goal is to lose 1.5 kg by this wednesday maybe it looks hard but i think i can do it perhaps if i set high goals for myself i'll be able to reach them and do so all the way. the thing with me is that if i did have the occasional splurges in holidays i will not stop, i kinda feel like i ruined everything and stop my diet but now with everyone's amazing support i think i can go all the way.. and i really hope the rest of you will too :D thank you so much glenn 

Cireena - Doctors recommend 1200 calories a day minimum. Long ago they used to do 800, like twenty years ago with some patients but I've been out of nursing 15 years and I think those days have passed. If Dr. Atkins recommends 1500 go for it but 1200 is the least you should do and believe me that alone Atkins or not will make one lose weight. This time of year almost everyone gains as there are parties and lots of temptations out there. Just don't be hard on yourself. Those stalls do pass eventually! Drink lots of water or sugar free tea - I like sugar free green tea iced, I make my own, my neighbor Mike told me to make iced berry teas and sweeten with Splenda or Nutrasweet and he said they are really good, so I'm going to buy some soon. They're healthier for you than diet soda. If your tap water is terrible get a pitcher filter, I just did a few weeks ago, the water is excellent. Good luck! 

thanks alot glenn i actually use the splenda sweetners when i have green tea or coffee it is a great substitute for sugar and it has less than 1 g of net carbs. i think i'll have to figure out a way to make sure i eat a minimum of 1200 calories per day because i need to follow the atkins diet literaly and not leave any room for error, to make sure i lose weight steadily and without stalling...