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Need Help! Need to log this because sometimes I struggle with beating up myself to why I'm not that happy-go-lucky person I once was. I forget that it has been a rough road these past few years. I've lost myself in the process of all these losses. My sister passed November; my mom, 2 years ago; my 2 month granddaughter, 4 years ago; and grandmother, 6 yrs ago; along with an ex-fiance taking his life and the loss of a longtime friend and confidant that moved away 6 years ago and recently in a relationship and girlfriend does not want him to contact me anymore and he doesn't want to lose the relationship. A Program shutdown 3 years this August, along with thousands of layoffs, I too lost my job. While working on a degree since the layoff my house was vandalized and along with trying to deal with all these losses I have become a mess. Isolation has taken hold of me and an extra 100+lbs these last 2 years, you see food has been the only escape I've trusted to carry me through this. No more! I've join this sight because I need to voice and acknowledge I need help, new friends and encouragement from others that have battles, knowing the struggles, sadness and emotions along with the desire to learn how to give themselves a break and to take a positive approach to their health. I hope to walk the road to a healthier outcome and log the success..along with developing new friends on this sight!
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1545 kcal
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Fat: 68.34g | Prot: 63.20g | Carbs: 156.51g.
Breakfast: Butter, Egg Omelet or Scrambled Egg, Watermelon, Coffee, Raisin Bread. Lunch: Calavo Avocado, Cilantro, Lemon Juice, Cherry Tomatoes, Bland Farms Vidalia Sweet Onion, Euro Fresh Farms Mini Cucumbers, Swiss Cheese, Pork Roast. Dinner: Whataburger Apple & Cranberry Grilled Chicken Salad, Fresh & Easy Cantaloupe Chunks. Snacks/Other: Au Bon Pain Fresh Watermelon. more...
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5690 kcal
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Exercise:
Desk Work - 2 hours, Cooking - 1 hour, Watching TV/Computer - 10 hours, Housework - 1 hour, Resting - 6 hours, Sleeping - 4 hours. more...
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Man, I feel for you. I've had a lot less trauma that you've had , but I let stress eating take over my life over the last couple of years too. Hang in there. I'm trying to reboot too. :)
31 May 15 by member: cocobutt
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You have had to contend with many losses...and many grief processes...Congrats on deciding that you no longer need food "to carry you through."...Its all a process, but I wish you the very best in your NEW way of living...:)
31 May 15 by member: SuccessThisTime58
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Welcome to the site. Sorry you've had to go through so many trials. This place is a wonderful tool and place of support. It's good to have you here, wishing you great success on your journey!
31 May 15 by member: jmb3450
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Gram, welcome !! You have had to endure than most people do in a life time. You are a survivor!! You will find friends here who support you, not just diet wise but in every part of your life that you are willing to share or need to talk about. You made great first step by deciding to take care of you!! Welcome to the site !!
31 May 15 by member: redgirl1974
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We are all powerless over what happened in the past. (and the future.) :)
It's right now that counts.
Good to hear that your focus is now.
Blessings. :)
31 May 15 by member: billtech66
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*hugs* I know about stress eating. I know about using food to "self-medicate" for comfort instead of finding another way to cope. I feel for you dearly, you are carrying a load far heavier than any one person should have to. I did the same sort of thing during my divorce from my children's father, my son being diagnosed with Aspergers and my daughter with Anorexia within months of one another and starting back to school because I had stayed home with my kids and my resume began looking dated and I was too far from my chosen career. And the loss of my father from liver cancer. But I have learned that there are still good things in life and started surrounding myself with good people making new friends here and locally and most of all how to love myself again and start taking care of myself. Our roads have not been easy but we are strong women and we need to take care of ourselves as well as anyone else we have loved and lost in past or any stress that can make life feel to damned hard to want to face. Some days that is just getting out of bed. I have started goal setting and not just letting myself achieve the goal but setting the next one higher and always trying to achieve more. Keep up the change in lifestyle and positive attitude. You are in control of your choices and how they impact you. Make them good ones!!! :D
31 May 15 by member: Pterath
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Welcome! Take it step by step with good choices.You will overcome!
01 Jun 15 by member: UmmBilal
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