jsfantome's Journal, 06 May 11

Today was my Dad's Birthday... so it is only natural I suppose, that my Mom and I are both feeling a bit out of sorts today. Not sure how long the grieving process actually takes for most people, but so much of it early on was put on hold, while dealing with life threatening issues for Mom, ... that neither her, or I really dealt with too much until this past year or so.

Miss my Dad alot... and even more when my Mom is having a hard day.

For those of you that don't know... my Dad died from long standing health issues all related to Diabetes. In my initial grief, and stress of caring for my Mom, I put all other things aside, including my own health, my own 'caring' for me, ... and woke up one day faced with the truth that I could end up just like him.

For the sake of my husband, my children, and myself, ... I had to make a decision to change.

And the good news is.. I did! And I don't have to live in fear that one day I will be faced with amputations, heart disease, kidney failure, loss of eye sight and oh, so much more... like he did.

Take a good look at your self today... at those around you... and choose this day to make a commitment to yourself, to love you! Do the things that are BEST for you. You won't go wrong with that advice!

Much Love,
Paula