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I've pretty much "given" up on my "diet" right now, I can't take care of myself when I have so much going on in my life and so much stress, it seems pretty pointless until I can find some peace, I feel I have to pay for everyone's mistakes, I've dealt with this for years and it has just built up to the point I can't take it anymore, how can I take care of myself when I have to much turmoil in my life? I'm not going to completely stop but I have gotten careless with what I eat, when I eat, and how much I eat, I haven't weighed myself in over 2 weeks...guess I don't want anymore bad news than what I've already got on my plate, I tried being positive and all I did was get my hopes up, like I always do, basically we aren't moving for at least 2 months and then it probably won't be like we had planned, I have to suffer because someone else screwed up their life...great...there will never be equality, I so desperately strive for it with no end in sight, my house is a mess...basically how I feel, I don't feel like doing anything really, I'm physically and emotionally drained from all this and I can't get away from it no matter how hard I try, I need to get away from this...I'm surprised I haven't gone to the hospital yet, wow I didn't expect to write this much, but if you got this far it is the end of my rant, sorry if I always seem to be negative...that's just my life right now, hopefully things get better soon..all I can do is hope..it's all that I can hold on to right now...
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