Multiplicity1's Journal, 23 Feb 11

Tonight I get a ten year chip for staying clean and sober for ten years. I have been hesitating about accepting it because I have been indulging my food addiction for a while. A friend is making me a coconut creme pie for my birthday and although I know it is feeding my addiction - I will probably choose to eat one or two pieces of it. But I have decided that tomorrow I will rededicate myself to Atkins as I did in the beginning. No more sugar, junk, sugar free candies, Atkins bars or aspartame sodas. It will be difficult and I will have to struggle but I can get through it with the help of my friends on this and other sites. I still need to learn to cook and like other veggies so I will have to eat my regular salad until I master that. I've gained 12 lbs. since I stopped sticking to the Atkins program. I am lucky it wasn't 50. I've still kept off 65 lbs. and that is an accomplishment. My problems continue but I can't let them continue to throw me off my food plan. I felt much calmer, more confident and happier when I stayed on the Atkins plan. I respected myself more, I was proud I could work on overcoming my food addiction. I can have all of that back by just choosing to go back to Basics. My husband won't get well because I am eating right but I will be able to cope with his illness and our other marital problems more easily. I am sorry I let myself and my buddies down but I can change those feelings and rededicate myself to my buddies too. It's time to stop making excuses for not doing my exercises too. Starting tomorrow I will start some kind of exercising again. Thanks for all your support through the good times and through my struggles. Tomorrow is a bright new day and I am looking forward to it. Love, Andrea