No need to apologize..this is a space in which when individuals can help and offer advice from their own experiences they will. Don't be afraid to talk to your FS family..you've got some really good people on here and we're all on a journey to getting healthier and stronger.
In regards to your fears...I'd say expect to gain some of the weight back I believe when you're body starts getting the nutrients it ends from solid food...but remember you don't have to gain it all back...this is a journey and marathon..the aim is to lose weight so that you don't have to worry about gaining a ton back whenever you can't workout or have a bad week...Get your body stronger and healthier...that's the aim and it won't happen overnight ...be kind..be patient..do not give up ...and when you feel like you want to..You have your FS family right here with ya... People who are going through the exact same thing in different ways. 🌻