keep it together Cahyia, stay sane!
I know what it feels like not to be in the zone and really wanting to get there! But take it one day at a time. Dig deep into your soul, (i know that hurts!) But resolve only comes from within. Every fiber in your body must agree with you to accept the new lifestyle. It can be confusing, frustrating, painfull and agrevating, but be true to yourself and toughen up!
maud.