Dude, gotta tell you, you don't have to look too far, I don't think the sexy ever left! Big guys are sexy too, its all in the attitude and personality. No matter what you weigh your personality is larger than life and very sweet and yes the sexy comes through. You learned something - that eating for comfort hasn't gone away, isn't cured, and is lurking there to trip you up. Worth the lesson. Now go forth and lose some more, you sexy Buddah you. Happy new year baby!