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Eek, awkward journal entry ahead.
Hesitated to write about this here, but this is about my health and wellness and no one from real life reads it, so it should be ok. If it makes anyone uncomfortable, I apologize.
I went to the doctor after experiencing those insane hunger cravings last week. There was something weird going on with my body, i could feel it. Turns out I am/was about a month pregnant, and when doing an ultrasound, they couldn't see it so they deduced it was an ectopic pregnancy, so I've been given a treatment to basically force a miscarriage, or a 'medical abortion', since ectopic pregnancies are extremely dangerous.
Now, it was pretty stupid of me to be so lax on birth control that this could happen. I've never been pregnant before and that was definitely not in the life plan.
I don't really have any feelings on the situation yet, I've just done the treatment today. I've continued to go to the gym every day, but my eating habits have varied a bit, with the cravings and the stress of the situation. When I first foudn out, I was pretty much in shock/scared, and couldn't see past the situation at all. Fortunately, I was kind of jolted back into reality, and the realization of how irresponsible unprotected sex can be. Luckily, after doing many, many tests and blood tests, I have a clean bill of health down there, so that's very lucky, except for this situation of course.
I've just started the treatment today, and it will take a few weeks for the hormones to go back to normal. Not going to scold myself too harshly if I experience any gains or losses over the next few weeks, but I'm more committed than ever about my health. I don't really want to think about what would've happened had keeping the pregnancy been an option, what with a border seperating me and my significant other, and all that. Makes me question the relationship situation that I'm in a bit, to be honest.
View Diet Calendar, 23 September 2010:
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849 kcal
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Fat: 17.96g | Prot: 32.50g | Carbs: 144.42g.
Breakfast: Plain Yogurt (Whole Milk), canada dry. Lunch: vegetarian chili. more...
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