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Hi everyone. I have been kind of frustrated about not being able to get on Fatsecret. I haven't entered my food for two days and I've already forgotten what I ate yesterday. I have been feeling kind of depressed about Shadow the last couple of days. My husband seems to be getting over her much more easily and that kind of bugs me. So many things remind me of her. I have been having doubts about getting a puppy too. It is so much work practically like being a new Mom and I'm not sure I am ready for all that responsibility and most of it will fall on me. puppy proofing the house, puppy potty training and training in general. I also know another dog isn't going to help me feel less sad about Shadow.
I have been trying to keep up my disciplines but when I get depressed I start feeling like I don't want to do anything. My walking and exercising was really helping with the depression too and now I can't do that. My foot is not seeming to get better this week and I don't know if I need to wear a boot or if I am just up on it and driving too much or what. It is tough to completely stay off your feet every day.
That phrase is funny because before I began to walk or exercise that is exactly what I did every day - stay off my feet. Now it seems so difficult not to be able to move around normally.
I haven't done my abdominal exercises yet today and it is 8:16p. I also need to do my spiritual meditation and I should pray the rosary tonight. I should also empty the dishwasher, put up the towels and make some program phone calls.
Tomorrow is weigh in day and I have no idea how I will do. I have done OK with my food except the veggies were too low a couple of days as usual and my carbs are at about 30 a day. I haven't been drinking enough water this week though.
I messed up my depression meds which isn't a good thing when I am already struggling with my depression. I have to be more careful and double check my meds after I fill my planner. I guess I will go and enter my food in the food diary.
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Take heart Andrea, you know that "this too shall pass" it just sucks/hurts while you are going through it. Perhaps your husband is just better at hiding his feelings - I know mine is. Perhaps a puppy isn't right for you just now, you may need to "lick your wounds" for a while longer. May I suggest that rather than a puppy and all the work that that would entail, that you rescue a dog that needs a good home through no fault of his/her own? We rescued our 2 cats - we lost one in March - she passed away :( and we receive great joy from them, and knowing that we also gave them a good home. Be as kind to yourself as you can be - depression can so easily get out of control. You have come so far. Reread your old journal posts to remind yourself of how much you have accomplished. Take care dear and its okay to grieve though Shadow wouldn't want you to become ill because he isn't there to look after you. Perhaps you could google some exercise for disabilities - there are lots of disabled people out there who manage to exercise - just a thought - if you can see the funny side of it - can you believe you are missing exercising? I bet you never saw that one coming in a million years. Hugs.
11 Sep 10 by member: sarahsmum
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Andrea, I cannot add to anything that Isabel said, I just want you to know that I am thinking of you. And as bad as things eem right now, that will past! Take care! ~S~
11 Sep 10 by member: ctlss
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Losing a dog is so painful; my DH and I have been thru it 3x in our married lives and it hasn't gotten any easier. He and I are very different in our grieving process and it seems to change with each dog. I'd encourage you to wait until you're both solidly ready to add another canine companion. Sarahsmum is right in that an adult rescue dog can be wonderful. We have 2. On a different topic....have you looked into knee scooters? When my DH had foot surgery, we rented a knee scooter so he could get around without crutches (which he hated). He loved getting around with it, esp. since his model had a basket on the front so he could carry things from room to room, and he even added a KAH-DOOO-KAH horn too. Hard to be depressed when you can go scooting around and honking a silly horn.
11 Sep 10 by member: Sandy701
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Yes, Andrea...try to keep in mind that everyone grieves differently. Don't get a new puppy (or another dog) until you're ready for it. You may need more time than your husband. I don't know what's up with FS either, but seems I can only log on now from my bookmarks toolbar... I don't know why. And others have had problems logging on, too. Next time, just jot it down on a notepad and then you can add it in when FS is working again. Take care, I know it MUST be difficult to stay off your feet. And just when you were getting into a nice routine, too. Hang in there! Things WILL improve. They ALWAYS do.
11 Sep 10 by member: redwinelover
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I simply must apologize for my typos. First, I have my Maine
Coon cat trying to help me type (yesterday during Slim in 6's push up segment, he climbed onto my back for a ride, and would not get off. I ended up face down on the mat, laughing so hard that I couldn't do anymore push ups and had to start the push up segment over!!), and I am so beat that I didn't even notice the typos until just now. Sorry!!
11 Sep 10 by member: ctlss
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