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I am having a very difficult time because we are going to have to put our 13 yr old dog to sleep this Saturday. I am heartbroken. She has had tumors for a while and they are affecting her breathing now and her knees are getting very strained and we are afraid they may give out on her and put her in excruciating pain. We can't afford surgery for her knees but even if we could it would not be the kindest thing with the tumors she has. She grew up with my youngest daughter and she is like a member of the family. Her name is Shadow and she is a lab chow mix. She is very sweet and very protective of my daughter and I. She has been a wonderful dog and we have a lot of wonderful memories with her. One funny thing about her is that she has never liked water like most labs - my husband put her in the lake when she was a pup and she hated it. She still plays like a puppy and one of out cats thinks she is her mother. That poor cat will get depressed too. I've never lost a pet that has been in my family for a long time. I am worried I might slip back into depression again. And I'm worried I will really, really want to eat over it. I hope writing about her will help.
I went to the doctor today because my right foot was really, really hurting. I injured it about a week ago but I have been continuing to do my DVDs every day and walk on it and it has continued getting worse and worse. Finally today I couldn't take it anymore and went to the doctor. They took Xrays and the doctor didn't see anything broken yet but she thinks I have a stress fracture in my foot. She says it often doesn't show up in an Xray for a week or two so I am supposed to come back to be re-checked in two weeks. She gave me some pain pills but she didn't put a boot on me yet. She says if it doesn't get a lot better after I am off it for a few days she will put me in a boot. It is still hurting a lot even with the pain pill. It hurts to walk and to drive especially. I have my foot up and it is throbbing right now. I may try to ice it also. The biggest disappointment was that I can't do my DVD's for God knows how long now. The only exercise I can do is pool aerobics that don't involve standing on my foot or other non-weight bearing exercises. I figured out I can still do Jillian's abdominal exercises but not any of the rest of hers. I think it was her jumping jacks that caused the foot problem. I have no idea how long this will take to heal. I forgot to ask the doctor. Not very smart of me I know. I was just in so much pain - all I was hoping for was that they could do something to help me. I'm still totally in favor of DVD's. I just pushed myself too hard and I have a foot defect that caused me a problem but I'm not sorry I did them and I will go back to them as soon as I can just a bit more carefully. Now I will get to know the joys of water aerobics.
One good thing was that my doctor indicated she will help me find a medical reason for the insurance to help pay for plastic surgery when I need it for the loose skin. So that was encouraging.
My food was not good today. I went to the dentist and ended up having chili for breakfast at 12:45. I haven't had any veggies today because I usually have a salad with green peppers and tomatoes and avocados and I just haven't been home to have one today. I had a chef salad for lunch and yogurt and blueberries for dinner. If I can get my daughter to make me a salad I will have one tonight otherwise I will just skip the veggies for today.
Tomorrow I will have to try to stay off my foot which will be totally boring but will give me an excuse not to do housework. At least I can do my spiritual reading and my languages sitting down. And there's always TV and my books. Thank you Keli for the Rosetta Stone disc. I got it yesterday. I'll check it out tomorrow. And I love the card! Please say a prayer for our family this Saturday...
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Oh, my heart goes out to you. We just put our dog down a couple months back. She had bad hips and bad knees for quite some time and the vet said surgery wouldn't help her. We knew when she got to the point where we had to bring her food to her in her dog house, and carry out of her dog house to go to the bathroom, it was time to let her go. My prayers are with you and your family.
01 Sep 10 by member: kboat562
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I'm really sorry to hear about your dog. A friend of mine recently had to put her dog down and she was so torn about it. I can only imagine how you feel. My condolences to you and your family. I hope that God will see you through this.
01 Sep 10 by member: SashaFierce
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My thoughts are with you too. We had to put our 10 year old boston terrier down last November. He was my buddy, especially since my boyfriend was gone to Iraq from 2008-2009. It was just him and I during that time and I couldn't have got through it without him. He developed Cushings Disease and even though he was on meds, I think he had it longer than we knew and it ended up damaging his liver. Like you, we really had no other choice but to put him down. I literally was sick for 2 days prior and afterwards and cried for a week, maybe longer. I still get teary when I think of him, but i know he is not suffering now. You will get through it, it will be hard, but don't try to be tough. Cry when you want to, and talk about the good times and the memories. They truly are a part of the family. Prayers will be with you and your family..hang in there!
01 Sep 10 by member: pcolestock
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Hi Andrea, I'm so sorry to hear about your dog... I know how attached we become to our pets. We have two cats that we adopted when they were six weeks old. Our kids were 5 and 7. Our kids are now 22 and 20 and our cats are still with us. But not doing as well as before, naturally. They, too, are a huge part of our family. My kids barely have memories of life without our kitties. It's sad, and I'm sorry. But you also know that nothing you put in your mouth is going to bring him back. Nothing you eat is going to actually soothe the pain. In fact, you'd just end up feeling much worse. Your beloved pet would still be gone and you'd have let yourself down as far as food is concerned. It won't help at all and would most certainly hurt. When it happens... face the pain of your loss. Mourn his passing, but celebrate his life with you and your family. Feel the pain. What you'll find out is ...believe it or not, you will be okay. You'll miss him, you'll be sad, you'll cry and have an empty spot in your heart where he was...but food won't change a damn thing. You'll be okay, Andrea. Trust yourself to feel your loss and come out the other side. ==================================And I'm also sorry to hear you've injured your foot. I almost feel a little responsible - pushing you to work out. I'm glad you're not pointing fingers. If it is a stress fracture, it'll heal really quickly as long as you don't put a lot of stress on it. I'm sorry to hear you're in pain.
01 Sep 10 by member: redwinelover
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Andrea, I cannot say it any better than RWL already has! I am so sorry that you are going through such a hard time. You and your family will be in my prayers!
01 Sep 10 by member: ctlss
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Hi Andrea, Hugs. I've been there and it will hurt, but you will be alright. Redwinelover really put it so well. I wish you didn't need to go through it though. She sounds like a great dog. You never fail to amaze me. I love that you thought 'I can still do the ab exercises.' Your thinking is so positive. Hope your foot stops hurting soon.
02 Sep 10 by member: dogwalk
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I was & AM still trying not to cry after reading this entry. On the 15th it'll be the 1 yr anniversary of the pass of my dog. We had to put her down & we had had her for 11.5 yrs. That was the longest we'd ever had an animal w/o dying or having to be put down. Sadly it also marks a year from my grandmother's passing. They both went on the same day, just hours apart. Your cat probably will be depressed but hopefully having a loving family will be enough to eventually bring about a happy cat again. My dog Lucy (that was her name) has a brother Yoshi & he's still w/ us. He was there w/ her when we put her down so that he understood what had happened to her. He's very alone & depressed & we do as much as possible to make him happy. Writing this is far harder than I thought. Cry when you need to, remember the good times & do your best not to dwell on the end. Your dog would want you to live on being happy & healthy, so eating away the pain won't help you in anyway. One thing I've done to help cope is that Lucy's dog tag is now part of my keychain, so a part of her is always w/ me = ) I'm sorry for what your family is going to go through on Sat. I wish you the best & hope that your foot heals quickly. *Hugs*
02 Sep 10 by member: Evil_Angel_Shay
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