Multiplicity1's Journal, 05 Aug 10

I went to the doctor today and she was super complimentary about my weight loss. She said I looked great and looked happy and healthy. She literally applauded me. She also made an appt. for three months from now because she said I might need support maintaining the weight loss that maintaining is sometimes harder than losing. I said that's fine but I still have 70+ lbs. to lose and this is my permanent way of life not a diet to me. She seemed pleased to hear that. I told her I thought I was no longer diabetic and she ordered a three month blood sugar test, cholesterol check and a creatine test because Atkins is a high protein diet. I told her I actually eat normal amts. of protein at every meal but she went ahead with the test anyway. I should get all the results of the tests in the mail. I know they will all be great. She was also very concerned about my husband and his symptoms and made sure I knew to have him come back in immediately if anything new happened. She normally is a very friendly, good listener who seems to know what she is doing. And usually she takes her time with you and doesn't rush you through the exam which is unusual for a doctor these days. I was happy to see that my home scale is only off 1.2 lb. from the doctor's scale (well maybe not that much because the doctor's scale didn't weigh tenths of a lb. so she rounded it up). I weighed 205 at the doctor's office and 203.8 at home this morning. But I will just continue using my scale as my measure because I don't want to subtract 1.2 lb. every time I weigh. Well now that I think of it my scale may be accurate because I weighed with my shoes and shorts on at the doctor's office and I don't do that at home. I should go weigh my shoes and shorts - that would be funny. No they didn't even weigh one tenth of a lb. according to my scale. Too bad...
I came home and tried to put my cat into a new cat carrier to take her to the vet but she scratched me several times and escaped. We have to take her to the vet to get flea medicine on her because she goes beserk when we try to put it on her but at the vet she just sits still and lets him do it. So hopefully I won't get catch scratch fever and will have to try to catch her another day.
I went to the meeting Wed. and it was frustrating because they talked all around the problem but everyone had a different idea about how to solve it and we ended up with a group to write up a policy about it that I am on with my best friend and two other women and another group to go make amends to the women for not addressing the problem properly in the first place which I did not volunteer for. Anyway I wanted the problem solved not dragged on and on but I have to go along with the group conscience. After the regular meeting I talked with Jean - my best friend and told her how I felt about what had happened when she shut me up at the meeting. I told her I was very hurt and I thought about not coming back to the meeting at all and almost ended up in the hospital. She repeatedly said she hadn't meant to hurt me which I believe is true. She even said she was kind of trying to protect me by trying to keep me from getting overly upset at the meeting which is also probably true. She said I should have come to her right away so we could have talked things out and I said I was too upset and I didn't want to say something while I was upset that I would regret. At the end she basically said I would now just have to get over it which is a true statement but not a very compassionate way to express things. Overall I was glad I expressed my feelings, she repeatedly assured me she didn't mean to hurt me and she cares very much about me. Afterwards we hugged and I felt better. It was a very good experience of me speaking up for myself and taking a risk. I have been afraid to do that with my best friend in particular for fear of losing the relationship.
Today I didn't do my DVD's but I made a commitment to myself that I would do them tomorrow if I didn't do them today. It was a busy day with a doctor's and a dentist's appointments. I am going to go walk.
I am still frustrated because I haven't quite gotten to 199. I suppose I could stop weighing every day but I want to know as soon as I get there so I can celebrate. I need to think of a suitable reward. Any suggestions? Not only have I lost more than 50 lbs. (which I didn't reward myself for yet) but I will be under 200. So it should be a great reward.
Have a terrific evening!

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1594 kcal

Fat: 121.22g | Prot: 76.34g | Carbs: 56.98g.   Breakfast: Splenda, Baking powder, Cinnamon, Egg, Flax seeds. Lunch: Salsa, Taco shells, Ground beef. Dinner: Pepperoni. Snacks/Other: Smuckers Peanut butter, Pork rinds, Macadamia nuts. more...

2301 kcal

Exercise: Walking (slow) - 3/kph - 45 minutes, Resting - 13 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 10 hours. more...