Multiplicity1's Journal, 03 Aug 10

My husband went to the doctor today and she said his symptoms do sound like MS. She ordered an MRI, an echogram of the heart and a CT scan of the carotid artery to rule out other possibilities and to check for MS. They are doing the tests next Thursday and they did a blood test also I think to check his thyroid. He is so tired of being exhausted and having so many painful and uncomfortable symptoms without relief. At least if he gets a diagnosis he may be able to get medications to relieve his symptoms so he can sleep and not be in so much pain and discomfort. I am relieved the doctor ordered some tests. I don't want him to have MS but I do want him to have something they can diagnose and treat.
I was supposed to go to a meeting with my old best friend. I got up and got ready but I was so sleepy because I was up until 2 am reading a great book that I fell asleep waiting for her and I didn't hear the phone when she called me. So we didn't hook up but that was OK because I kind of wanted to talk with my counselor first anyway. I am going to talk with her after the meeting tomorrow about my feelings. I am nervous about it but I think I will feel worse if I don't express myself to her. I just hope it doesn't throw me for a loop again. But I need to express that my feelings are important and that I was hurt when she shut me up so abruptly. I hope she will express that she is sorry that I was hurt and that she didn't mean to hurt me. I know she will say she was only trying to do what was best for the group but I hope she will be able to see that she didn't take my feelings into account at all when she chose to shut me up in such a hurtful way. At least my feelings are a lot calmer now and I don't feel so irrational about the whole episode. I can even see where I could have handled the situation better. My counselor still thinks it was a good step for me to speak up about the disruption.
Still no movement on the weight. I think it is just a psychological barrier that 200 lb. mark. I weighed 202.5 this morning. I am still hoping for 199 by Thursday. I have not been doing well with my veggies this week. I have not been getting 12-15 veggie carbs and I need to work on that because I know it is important. We have been a little short of cash so I haven't had many food choices this week. But thankfully Thursday is payday.
I bought some garbanzos to put in my salads and I am going to try split pea soup too and three bean salad with kidney beans (if I can find some wax beans). Then I need to try lentils, navy beans, black eyed peas, lima beans and soybeans. I also want to order some low carb bake mix and some low cab bagels. If anyone knows where I can order low carb bagels would you let me know please.
Oh and on a different subject if anyone knows about a good CD on healing can you let me know - I'm going to order some for my husband to listen to.

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1439 kcal

Fat: 113.72g | Prot: 61.58g | Carbs: 58.07g.   Breakfast: Splenda, Baking powder, Cinnamon, Egg, Butter, Flax seeds. Lunch: Green papper, Avocado, Cheddar cheese, Lettuce, Tomato. Dinner: Blueberries, Greek yogurt. Snacks/Other: Pork rinds, Macadamia nuts, Diet Dr. Pepper. more...

2396 kcal

Exercise: Walking (moderate) - 5/kph - 45 minutes, Resting - 13 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 10 hours. more...