|
I got on the scale this morning and I am (unofficially) at 202.9 now. I am getting excited about getting under 199. I walked for 40 minutes tonight. I did not do my DVD but tomorrow I will definitely do it. I need to move some suitcases out of the way now - my husband was supposed to put them away but he forgot. I was supposed to meet with my counselor at 6pm tonight but I forgot my appt again. The meds I am on make me so forgetful. My counselor is going to be so aggravated with me. My former best friend called me on the phone to ask me why I didn't come to the meeting and to ask if I wanted to do something with her. I called her back but she never responded back to that call. I talked to my sponsor about why I did not go to the meeting and we discussed next week's meeting about the women with the babies and a solution to the problem even though they aren't coming back. I am the secretary so I suppose I should try to go and take minutes of the meeting. I don't know if I can handle it. My sponsor feels there will be shouting. I don't know what to say to my old best friend. I told my sponsor I just don't feel safe with her. But I wasn't ready to tell her off or ignore her call. I am still so emotional about the meeting I don't want to say anything to her about it until I have my head on straight. I want to practice what I want to say and what she might say back. I don't know I want to stay friends but I am not ready to decide that today so I will keep talking to her until I can figure things out. I told my sponsor I did that small amt of work on a 4th step and it made me feel bad about myself and depressed - she mentioned 4th steps are designed to be followed immediately by 5th steps where you talk about them. I told her I need to work on my 3rd step where I become willing to turn my will and my life over to God as we understand Him. I need to develop my relationship with my Higher Power before I can move on to step 4 without being overwhelmed by it. So I am going to focus on Step 3 right now. I definitely need to focus on spiritual development. Only my Higher Power can help me sort out my mixed emotions and my tangled relationships.
|
1263 kcal
|
Fat: 107.39g | Prot: 49.95g | Carbs: 31.93g.
Breakfast: Bacon, Eggs. Lunch: Green papper, Avocado, Cheddar cheese, Lettuce. Dinner: Blueberries, Greek yogurt. Snacks/Other: Sunflower seeds, Macadamia nuts. more...
|
|
 Comments
I never took the Twelve Steps that seriously. Transfer some of those concerns over to the Higher Power and forget about it all for a while. "Don't ask me how, but things will work out, they always do."
29 Jul 10 by member: information
|
Hi Andrea. First of all, CONGRATULATIONS for getting that much closer to your immediate goal! This IS exciting. Three pounds away from realizing something you've been thinking and dreaming about for months - possibly years. So celebrate that, okay? Take it slow with your friend, give her a chance, as long as you don't have to compromise yourself and what is important to you in order to do so. And just learn from the past with her. Some people can't stand Dr. Phil, but he has a lot of one-liners that are truisms. He says the best indicator of future behavior is past behavior. Not to say we can't change ourselves, because I believe anything is possible. We have no control over others, though, so unless your friend is willing to change and a )be more supportive of you and your diet/health issues and b) try to be more supportive and understanding when you have something to say, then maybe it's best to slowly distance yourself from her. You don't have to become enemies, you don't have to stop all communication with her, but you have to right to protect yourself and to surround yourself with people who are positive influences in your life. You can slowly become "friends", but not share life, you know? If that's the only way to deal with this issue and she's not willing to support you. ----------------- My mom used to say I was like a bull in a china shop. It's not necessarily that I was wrong in what I had to say or what I wanted to do, but not so delicate when it came to HOW I approached it! Lol... Anyway, maybe you suffer the same syndrome (tongue-in-cheek here)? You may have had VERY valid points, but it's possible the way in which you broached the subject made the recipients feel defensive. Or possibly offended (inadvertently). In which case, maybe that apology should be forthcoming. Anyway, the point is to stick to your guns, to stand up for yourself, but not to trample others in the process, right? Nothing wrong with focusing on step 3, but you sort of do that as a matter of course, anyway, don't you? Different things work differently in the individual. But I do agree with Info in that things almost ALWAYS seem to work out. And I guess I believe that even when WE don't think they do, they fulfill a part of His plan. Trust yourself. And don't overlook your accomplishments along the way. Be proud of yourself. I'm proud of you!
30 Jul 10 by member: redwinelover
|
| |
|
|
| |
Submit a Comment
You must sign in to submit a comment. Click here to sign in.
|
|
|
Multiplicity1's Weight History
|