Hello everyone who is dealing with the food and eating minefield called Christmas. I wonder if people of other faiths other than Christianity have trouble with their holiday seasons - Chanukah, Divali, etc. I have been pigging out like a liddle piggie for the past two days. Today is Christmas Day and I think I will actually eat under 2000 calories today, which is miraculous. The 23rd and the 24th I just basically ate whatever the hell I wanted. My blood sugar was okay, so no panic there. I made a gigantic no sugar added apple cobbler, and ate it with some no sugar added vanilla ice cream. I had apple pie a la mode for breakfast today. I tested my blood sugar and it was 96 two hours after eating! Couldn't believe it. So I ate the same thing for lunch today. Later on it will be a fried chicken dinner with my family. I feel sooooo gross. I feel like I've gained 5 pounds in three days. I am still getting into my clothes just fine, everything fits the same, but I feel so gross. Overeating is such a temptation, and maybe one day of it I enjoy, but after 2 days of serious overeating, I just feel gross and bloated and heavy. I am so ready to get back on track. I have decided that for the new year, I am going to lower my RDI to 1200 calories. I am going to do my damndest to give up diet soda. I am going to drink my coffee and tea black. I am going to concentrate on drinking more water. I am going to keep exercising at my current rate. I am really proud of that. I think objectively, I work my ass off in the gym. It's hard for me to comprehend why I haven't lost any weight since the beginning of October and I have been so good about running for the past 3 months. I am sure there are a lot of hidden calories that I am not logging - half and half, condiments, portions that are probably bigger than they should be. I am just going to have to be ruthless. I need to measure things more often - like when I eat sugar free ice cream, I "eyeball" it. I need to stop doing that - get out the cup measure, and make sure I am eating no more than 1 cup. I am ready to be accountable on another level. I lost 50 pounds being somewhat accountable, but if I want to lose more, I am going to have to be even more accountable. And I'm ready for it. I have a black bikini I would like to get into five months from now, and I am going to have to absolutely bust my rear to do it. I'm ready. I'm going to run a 10K in May, and I am going to wear a two piece swimsuit this summer. I've got my work cut out for me.
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