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Kay this insomnia thing is killing me. I hope I don't have to go back on sleeping pills. Perhaps its just the diet and weight loss and perhaps its all the new found energy I seem to have. Or perhaps its this darn website (fatsecret) that I'm addictd to...LOL It has helped me sooo much in more ways than one. Just broke up with my 2 year long boyfrien back in September and had some serious struggles saying goodbye and to be quite honest its still not the easist but I know its for the best. I have to soon let my guard down though and start dating again but I just don't have it in me. Right now I am just content with being a great mom and a hard worker and definatly a NEW ME. Today I was at my gym at curves and although I am using my own scale for the FATSECRET weigh ins I had to get re weighed at curves for the new smart fit machines. My trainer was more than surprised when we realized that from the start of curves which was back in August I believe I am down a whole 19 pounds and litle does she know I had been up and down but now i am committed. Either way this is a great sign and made me feel awesome. Keep plugging away and I'll get there...I was thinking tonight how great it would be to run into my ex and have him see how I'm looking since we broke up. Perhaps he might realize what he lost? Either way its all for the best and I have to keep telling myself that. My prince will come along and until he does my 10 year old son is my prince and A GREAT ONE at that. I can't believe he is only 10 sometimes. He is such a fine young man. He won't even allow me to carry a bag out of the grocery store and always holds doors open for others. I tell him all the time that it is something as little as opening a door that people recognize and sure enough people do. Then there is the odd time when someone will not even look back or acknowledge that my son has waited longer to go inside a door just to wait and hold the door open for someone who is walking up that way. He literally stands and waits to be polite. What a good kid I have..but I will pat myself on the back for that one. YES I"M BRAGGING,... Well going to watch a movie in bed and hope to get some shut eye.
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