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Had a bad day yesterday. Bought one of those smaller size lays bags (didnt they used to be 99 cents?) now 2.69. Should have been my first warning. Ate the whole bag and 1/2 bag of chocolate chips which are the only sugar item in the house (use in protein muffins). 2 protein bars (homemade good ingredients) and oatmeal with blueberries. Super unhealthy day and feel sick today. I knew what i was doing. My child is in a lot of emotional pain and i was taking to the airport where, once landed, more pain awaits and today is the estate distribution with some really disgusting people that have challenged my patience and ability to keep my thoughts to myself for years. (Hard to do when im not shy by any means but love of hubs prevailed) Been up since 3 am so 3 hours of sleep. So im sick from the sugar and fat and grease im not used to or the lack of sleep or both. Bad food behavior. At 60 for Pete’s sakes. So annoyed with myself. I have been giving myself 1-2 pieces of chocolate here and there and been fine but nope, cannot have in the house must only buy 1 small piece if thats where my stupid, sabotaging food brain wants to live. Damn. Bad food is not the answer. I KNOW this.
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62.1 kg
Lost so far: 40.8 kg.
Still to go: 0.9 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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912 kcal
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Fat: 22.85g | Prot: 71.50g | Carbs: 115.38g.
Breakfast: Orgain protein powder, Baking powder, Swans Down Cake Flour, Chocolate Chips, Maple Grove Farms Pure Maple Syrup, Bananas, Vanilla Extract, Salt, Egg. Lunch: Harris Teeter Blueberries, Bananas, Bob's Red Mill Flax Seed, Oatmeal, Orgain Organic Protein Plant Based Protein Powder Sweet Vanilla Bean. Dinner: Kodiak Cakes Power Cakes, Egg White, Tillamook Sharp Cheddar Cheese. more...
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Gaining 0.7 kg a Week
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Lays are one of my kryptonite foods. I have eaten just one because I am stubborn and have to prove sometimes that I am SuperWoman. But eating just one chip sucks. They should have specified to eat just one bag. I am also a chocolate whore. Could probably still be lured into any car if the pervert had the right kind. I also feel sick after eating off plan but obviously not enough to quit. I do manage to stop gorging on bad food before I vomit. The best thing for me is to not have it in the house but hubby is not okay with that. Even during Covid, when you had to worry about what you were going to wipe your butt on, the potato chip aisle here was always full. Good old Frito Lays. Our government needs to be as dependable.
28 Jun 24 by member: -MorticiaAddams
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Ah, YOH, don't beat yourself up my dear. It's done, that's old news, make better choices today and find your joy again. 💚💜💛
28 Jun 24 by member: shirfleur 1
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Please don't be angry with yourself. We engage in emotional eating during times of stress because it alters our brain chemistry in a desirable way - by creating a serotonin spike (particularly true for foods with simple carbs) or reducing cortisol. It sounds like what you are chasing in these times is a serotonin hit, which makes sense because serotonin is known to calm stress. That's great knowledge to have. You can use that information to get the good brain chemical you seek in ways other than eating "bad" foods - being in nature, exercise, connecting with other people, certain healthy foods (especially those that contain tryptophan) - can all help release serotonin and create that same calming feeling you seek in food. Or, you can continue to indulge now and then and eat the "bad" foods and get what you need from them and put them down again, but it sounds like that approach is undesirable to you, and it's fine to reject that option.
29 Jun 24 by member: ddrudd
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I get it. I am an emotional eater, too. Yesterday I treated myself to a blueberry muffin. My weight is up .8 lb today! Not a big deal, but a lesson for sure. Back on track today. Definitely forgive yourself for being human 😂 and just go on and stay focused today.
29 Jun 24 by member: Ellen128
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We need those comfort foods on bad days.
29 Jun 24 by member: Clarabones9
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I trained my brain to understand that emotional overeating only makes me physically ill and adds to whatever the underlying problems I’m dealing with. It can be done. I hope you find a way to overcome this. Don’t buy things you don’t want to eat and/or purge your house of whatever is there that you don’t want to eat. I’d you buy it— you know you plan to eat it. The idea of buying and having just a smidgeon a day is laughable for most people.
29 Jun 24 by member: Kenna Morton
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I feel you! I was in Aldi yesterday and almost got the potato chips but figured they wouldn’t last long and blow up my calories. Sometimes you gotta say WTF
29 Jun 24 by member: chicago ken
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Prayers for you! I allow my “comfort” foods but incorporate them into my daily caloric intake and tweak other food choices, as needed. If you 💯% avoid the treats you enjoy, it’s not sustainable IMO.
I’m sorry you didn’t sleep good. Stress is horrible on the mind, spirit, and body.
Try to get some sunshine ☀️ therapy, if possible. Hang in there!
29 Jun 24 by member: StormsGirl
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Sounds like me yesterday at end of year VBS week. All of us had pizza, cookies, cake, etc...That was not good for me, and is something I don't eat but maybe 1 - 2 times per year. Chocolate and peanut butter are "no-no's" for me, since both are addictive for me, and of course dark chocolate has so much caffeine that it affects my AFIB. Like you said, "Bad food is not the answer. I KNOW this." 😆
29 Jun 24 by member: Bionici
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lack of sleep is the worst - then I crave ....
30 Jun 24 by member: elizabethknappert
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We understand. Compulsive eating is like no other addiction. No other requires the addict to take the Tiger out of the cage three times a day for a walk. No matter how long we starve our Tiger it just seems to keep growing stronger. And as we all know, giving our Tiger a treat just makes it meaner. It will never be tamed, or our friend, or quit stalking us at our weakest moments... But we have an even worse enemy. The Tigers best friend who is unforgiveness of ourselves. And we know that if we allow the Tigers best friend to take us out then our cause is lost. So, our best weapon to defeat our Tiger is to forgive ourselves of lost battles. Only then can we fully engage in the remaining war. Only then can we rally the troops of hope and resolve and the strength we need for the next time we must take our Tiger out of its cage for its walk. You are worthy of the next battle. You are worth forgiving. You are not your Tiger. You are worth loving without having to also embrace your Tiger. Rob your Tiger of its strength with your power to forgive yourself and put it back in its cage with your renewed strength of resolve that comes from the peace of knowing you are forgiven.
30 Jun 24 by member: Yippee Ki Yay
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Prayers...for a calm spirit and sparks of joy in each day....whether you're in the valley or half way up the next "mountain" of life. Blessings to all.
30 Jun 24 by member: brendabradshaw
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Prayers...for a calm spirit and sparks of joy in each day....whether you're in the valley or half way up the next "mountain" of life. Blessings to all.
30 Jun 24 by member: brendabradshaw
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I understand and my advice to you is to regroup and move forward. We all “ mess” up once in awhile so you need to use this experience as a reminder of how bad it makes you feel. It is like an addiction. Once you’ve crossed that line it’s a no return. Remove all chocolate from the house. It’s triggering you. I know that feeling of despair after we’ve eaten ourselves into oblivion! I hate that sick feeling and the anger and disgust I have for myself afterwards. Most of us have some sort of food issues and it’s not a healthy thing to obsess. I’m just as guilty. I just want to have a good relationship with food and not worry so much about what I put in my mouth but it’s just not how my brain works……💜💜💜💜💜
30 Jun 24 by member: Diana 1234
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We all go through that, YOH. I have been totally thrown off the last two days with some personal stress. Don't add to the stress by beating yourself up. Talk to yourself as gently as you would talk to a dear friend or beloved child. Would you berate them? From what little I know of you, I doubt it. Treat yourself with the same love and kindness ❤️
30 Jun 24 by member: writingwyo
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