Last night I went way overboard. I ate half of a small cheesecake a box of Pizelles, about a whole bag of laffy taffy. I couldnt stop. Maybe I could, maybe I just didnt want to. Maybe I ate to feel that euphoric feeling, I dont know. All I do know is after I felt awful. A pound is what I deserve. I havent exercised in well over 2 weeks either.
Im going thru some stuff. My landlord who we pay about 1300.00 a month to sent us a letter and all it said was leave the house by aug 31st. Our lease renewed for another year about 3 weeks or longer before he wrote and sent the letter. I have no idea what the real reason is as to why he sent it. We did put Julys rent in escrow bc we have been asking him to fix things for a year and he hasnt. We havent had a furnace in 5 months among other issues. The other reason could be that the irs and several banks are trying to collect more than 1 million dollars from him. Yes you heard me right, over 1 million dollars. We think that maybe the house, that we offered to buy mind you, is somehow tied up into all the other properties he owns and he cant get it released to sell. We think he may be wanting to file yet another bankruptcy. He is muslim so the language barrier is there and maybe he doesnt understand us, I dont know. All I know is I am not staying here to find a pad lock on my house and have my things stolen from me. So now we are looking to buy a house. I hate the thought of packing up my 4 kids and moving. I hate the fact that this house could be in foreclosure proceedings, I hate the fact that I paid him 1300 a month every month for a year and he may not have been paying the mortgage. I hate the fact that I lose my house even though I have done nothing wrong! Thats a lot of hate, geeze.
This was suppose to be the house we lived in forever. I put curtains up here. I have moved 26 times in my 28 years and was ready to stop. It just isnt fair. So I am turning to God and I know He will provide.
I have to exercise and I have to stop the binging. I am so close to my goal, I deserve this. Maybe I was self sabotaging I dont know. But IT STOPS TODAY!
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73.9 kg
Lost so far: 41.3 kg.
Still to go: 2.3 kg.
Diet followed: Poorly.
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510 kcal
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Fat: 13.00g | Prot: 14.00g | Carbs: 87.00g.
Breakfast: Special K Bliss Bar. Lunch: fit and active, chocolate wafer fit and active. more...
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Gaining 3.2 kg a Week
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